Super Soi.
Jances posts... again =O
As I am typing this out, I have just returned from my voluntary work which I do sometimes at this social centre for disabled people.
I was talking to this lovely lady whom I think is just absolutely amazing and I would like to share what I think is so special about her with you guys.
In the middle of a particular conversation, she showed me a really deep slash on her left wrist and explained about it. She told me that she attempted to commit suicide. She said that when the blood was slowly seeping out of her and when she thought she was going away, it would be nice to leave her pain. But when she became conscious again, she realised how stupid she was as flashes of her daughters and grandchildren appeared, reminding her of the wonders of her life.
She told me of her broken childhood. Of how she was raped when she was really young. Of how she had to always convince herself that she is worthy after that. Of how unjust that the person who raped her had only a few months of sentence while she is undoubtly affected her whole life.
chanel handbags She told me the time when her father passed away when she was only 28, when she was fully disabled. At a point, she had to go into rehab. She had a husband who kind of controlled her really. And she is always on painkillers.
She mentioned that she won't use cheap lipstick anymore because she should be treating herself. She does not need to go to second hand shops to shop for clothes anymore. She has a new aim in life. She wants to learn how to use the computer properly and learn the ways of the internet so that she can maybe do a bit of business on the internet. She couldn't exactly work after her father passed away, they wouldn't insure her because she is disabled.
I really look up to her for going from a wheelchair to 2 crutches to one crutch, for being able to smile brightly for her friends even when you can tell she is in agony, for having such a kind heart even after all she has been through.
We should realise that life shouldn't be wasted and it shouldn't be discarded just like that. There is so much to live for even in such adverse times. Lavish your love on people you cherish and treasure. There's no point brooding over a depression when others who have gone through worse can still be so optimistic about life.
So to end this post, I would like to say I LOVE YOU GUYS, my family, my friends, people I care a lot for even though I don't show it sometimes. So take good care because there are so many people who care about each and every one of us.
-- Jances P.
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
8:54 PM
I get paranoid too much lately. I question about things that shouldn't be questioned. I think of thoughts that shouldn't be thought of. It is one confusing web. Too much that have had happened in the past have contradicted my thoughts but there's always space to question. Is it true? Is it genuine? Are they really?
At the moment, i feel like the only person i feel close to is...noone.
Don't worry if you don't understand the above paragraphs. I don't myself. I think I am just getting a bit weird. Oh wait, I have always been kinda weird. One thing for sure though, I do know who I love =D
Anyways, thought I'd post just to revamp this site. It's getting much too dead for my liking.
I have a few Birthday Greetings that I owe :
Azam, April, Mandy, Kelvin Tang, Wen Jei and Hiong : Happy Belated Birthday!
Chee Hwa, Syaza and Wendy : Happy Advanced Birthday!
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
6:16 AM
Weird attire worn by me huh? hhaa, my mum suggested tat i shud use a blur scarf, and its the first time i used it. She dun allow me to use tie. LoL. So satisfied wif last nite hair lo, its blue. ;). ohya, hui and juang gave me a lot of confidence yo. thx gals. shhh, tats secret. ;).Vain i noe la.
Any more pose?
A failure model. :(
Oh, tis pic was taken on 4th april. Satisfied hair. :)
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
9:02 PM
Heya!!I am on
TJ's laptop now. In Brunei Hall, London now. So nice to see more familiar faces again.
Just went to eat dim sum with
Yin yee, Yan min, Ai ting, Alvina, Ying Woan and
Jeff just now. Soooo stuffed.....we kinda ordered too much...hahah had 50% off mar....so it didnt turn out too expensive lar. Then after that, just went window shopping with
Yin Yee and
Jeff and then we ended up having Ben & Jerry's ice cream..hahaha...I cant help but be sooo into food now.
Neways, my first week of easter holiday was fun. I joined an easter camp. Let's see if i can remember what happened.
24th marchReached the camp in time for
dinner. Had quite nice food actually and a huge variety of desserts
...*slurp*. Unpacked out stuffs. We had a whole long hut to ourselves, with 2 long rows of beds seperated by a metal bedside table. Sixth formers get rooms though....hehe special privilage. I shared a room with an upper sixth. They had communal showers so we had to wear our swimming suits everytime we shower which was quite annoying.
25th marchHad
breakfast....oh and whenever we are in uniform we have to march. So yea, after breakfast, we did an assault course....not recommended for the ppl who fear heights....i mean i was scared too walking on a plank 12 feet high and this rope ladder thing 15 feet high. Then, all of us did two different rock climbing walls and it was off to abseiling....
wheee.
Packed Lunch. Our afternoon activity was a really fun one. Kel, did u remember the flying fox we did for the double X challenge? Well, we did something like that except it was from a higher tower and we were stopped by four ppl pulling on four ropes connected to this metal thing that stops you at the bottom.
louis vuitton handbags The sound of that metal and the metal pulley clashing into each other isnt exactly a very pleasant sound.
Dinner. That night, we were bored so we turned up the music really loud ( some ppl brought their speakers) and we cleared a space where we ended up dancing. We did animal taichi...hahaha.
26th marchBreakfast. I think we went to visit the sand dunes....it was kinda cool coz there was guy leading us and telling us about the types of plants found there. There was this one time he showed us this yellow flower and mentioned that for this type of plant, the flower comes out before the leaves. So i asked how does the plant photosynthesis to make food then and got a nudge from my biol tcher ( she's in the ccf too)....haha i found that nudge amusing. So yea, he said the plant uses the store from the previous season. Walked along the sea and it was so windy that you could see the sand particles gliding across the shores.
Packed Lunch. Then about 2 hours of mountain biking. The bikes had men seats so all of our butts were so sore after the ride. It was so physically tiring for me esp with all that resistance from the wind as we were riding by the river.
Dinner. Watched Ella Enchanted ( The tcher in charge brought a TV and a video player).
27th marchBreakfast. We were supposed to go on a helicopter ride but didnt get to so we ended up going round this tiny town. My friends and i just sat in a cafe. I had devonshire cream tea which was really english..haha. Scone with loads of jam and full cream with a pot of tea. Yum yum.
Packed Lunch. Went to visit the Royal Marines there. We were given wetproof suits which are massive! There's this pit filled with 1.5m of water. They gave us a feel of what it was like swimming in those suits....we were just splashing around floating...couldnt exactly swim..lol. Then they gave each of us a chance to sit in the passenger seat of a truck and then drove the truck through the pit. The water filled the truck up till our chest....i could feel myself being lifted from my seat...short but cool entertainment. Next, we were enjoying the sea breeze on this boat which can be a land vehicle as well....Eventhough it was going quite slow, each of us were given a chance to drive it....wheee. Then, we were brought around in this speedboat 8 at a time. It was just like sitting on a jet ski....mayb even better! hehe....but at that time our bums were still quite sore and being almost thrown off our seats when the driver did a sharp turn was quite agonising...hahaha. We were then brought back to land.
Dinner. Watched Just Married.
28th MarchBreakfast. Went to Dartmoor and did the highest Tor there called Yes Tor. It was quite tiring. At the top, it was superbly windy. I mean u can lean back and be supported up by the wind. Then we had our
packed lunch up there. Btw, our packed lunch consists of like a cold pasty, choc bar, choc muffin, crisp, bottle of water, nutri-grain and a small packet of nuts. After that, we were supposed to do another tor but i think because of the limited time and the few ppl with blisters, we were given a chance to wander around another tiny town.
Dinner. Dunno what i did at night...I think watched another movie...hmm yea, the bride's father i think.
29th MarchBreakfast. Went around another town. This time we went to a pastry shop, ate by the river, played at a playground intended for children up to 14 and got quite bored after a while...hehe.
Packed Lunch. Horseriding! I was in the begginers group ( obviously). Each of us were given a horse to ride by ourselves (wheeee)....it was just a walk but we did trot occasionally and that one hour lesson i had 6 yrs ago might have just came in handy..hahaha.
Dinner. We went to the cinema and watched 'The Last Holiday'....it is quite a nice chic flick and i bought a whole cup of sweets of chocs to eat throughout the movie too =)
30th MarchBreakfast. Did dry slope skiing. It felt quite nice because i am not a begginer anymore..whee....hehe but i still fell down once....a spectacular one whereby my gloves were out of my hands too.
Packed lunch. Snow tubing and toboganing. Btw, these werent done on snow so wasnt as much fun =/ After those, we were given a bit more free time to do some more dry slope skiing. This time someone else had a nasty fall. Was brought to hospital and had to be on crutches *Ouch* ( As she is one of my 2 frens who i am gonna do parachuting with, we ended up not doing our parachuting that weekend )
Dinner. Bowling...my score was 72....not bad lar hor....laser quest ( sounds cool but it wasnt all that good) and lastly.....PIZZA HUT! I finished a whole medium pan pizza by myself...woots! Even had space to stomach my fren's crusts.
31st MarchPacked our stuffs and that was the end of camp. We were each given a choc easter egg by the tchers in charge. Awww...how sweet of them.
So there you have it, quite an accurate account of what i spent quite a lot of money on for a week of my holiday.
I had loads of homework to do....i am now questioning the completion of my homeworks....owh well....hehehe. Cant wait to have more food. Owh noo =/ And I am very recently addicted to
OC ( slow i know but oh well)....been watching it every night with
Yin yee, Yan Min and
Isa. Alrites, will try to post pics when i can.
Cheerios!
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
1:52 AM
Phew, our physics test was postponed. We r supposed to hav it on wednesday but dunno y mr.Jee changed to next monday. Tats the good news. well, the bad news is tat we having chem test as well on next monday 10th of april. Hmm, today we dun hav physics class in the afternoon but then mR.Chong gave us frm 1.15 till 3.15pm (to discuss homework). Took away our free time ler. Hehhee, as usual, i didnt do my chem homework so did some of the Pu2Z. tsk tsk. Tat jeibo, hiongie and dynzo so naughty ah, they escaped the class cos they hav got appointment wah... eshhhh. unfair. lalalalla~ Once the class finished, everyone fleed away, i was the last one to leave [giving sir my chem homework(finish copying. :D)]. When i went out of the lab, there were no sign of my classmates (as if they could disappear in a few mins frm second floor to ground floor). Then i try looking ard. rupanya, they headed to our normal classroom. I was wondering y they headed there instead of using staircase. So i jus follow them heading there. Then i saw them in tat class and a big banner for us to do handprinting. It was cool. Actually the handprinting is for our graduation 2006. :DSo blur of me, not knowing anything. :(Sigh, didnt get to jog ard this afternoon because it was raining. Ohya, the happiest and enjoyable moment in the 'MALL' tat i had experienced. well, abt tat ah, lets tok abt yesterday events. Frm 8-10, got chem tuition lo. Hui also Maths tuition lo.Then after tuition, hui called me to go makan wif them at Food Zone. There was Juan, Maggie, Hui, Kelvin Tang, Jason, Jeremy and royston lo. We ate dimsum and its quite cheap eating there.After the eating part, they all planned to go Yayasan to look for shirts/dress to be wear during April's buffday. But jem, hui and i(spoiler) end up at jem's hse. btw, pssst, u guys noe tat being lighbulb is so so uncomfortable (and im not allowed to leave lagitu, all i do is to enjoy my anime on jem's pc).Wait and wait for kelvin tang to arrive at jem's hse so we can go Gdg together lo. Then at ard 1.30pm, we went Mall lo. They shopping for dress, high heels lo. Its so fun to keep annoying sumone there. LoL. Then makan session at food court lagi. Then juan, maggie and fei went home after eating. Kelvin and royston also leaving. replica watches So left wif me, jem and hui. LUCKILY, a few seconds later, Juangie reached there. haha. then we went to search for dress lagi. And i be the keh po there to giv comments lo. :D Its jus so funny lo. *wink* Whole events ended at ard 4.30. I think tats it. Bah, time for super cute helmut hair gal. Jances, i think its u. hahai think tat red shirt gal is u, jances.
watcha want from me huh?? :D
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
5:41 PM